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Tuesday, February 4, 2014

nu blog  8I

Well

I'm cleaning my room?

What happens to me now?  I know I was just upset.  I was funny @ 1st, but after injuring my dad?  Are you just trying to see more examples of JC?

Well

I was mad @ the injurious car accident.  I feel I blew up and just kinda left off.  I wish I didn't, shoulda got more when we ate out or something to quell myself.  Or just see if you could shut up?

Watcha Think

What do you think of highly intelligent negative reaction people?

Wah

are we made to be jealous of Richard Carpenter?? err his kids

His kids are well-seated.

Plan

Groups this semester.

Volunteer in the summer.

Job in the fall.

School in the spring.

I EVEN SEE IT

You think oh cute baby born 1998 is yours .. then you throw me out.. then you want me back! just to do the same thing again! to compare me badly to a baby! I wanted to be a good baby.

What did you feel??

How did you feel @ sitting there like an animal grunting out thoughts because of people like Ellen??

1998 :|

Remember when birth was all that counted in life?  What about 1 and done?  A HE HE HA HA.
I have the wig!

Monday, February 3, 2014

What is your problem?

You are threatening my future daughter.  I do not wish to do this.

OMG

PLACE THE RESTRAINING ORDER ON ELLEN SHE THINKS SHE CAN JUST NASTILY HAVE A KID WITH HIM AND I CAN'T THINK OF HIM AS A DAD

Bugged

I feel I am bugged at any time from Ellen's secret messages.  It's different.

Well

I had a close friend with parents born 1941, daughter perfectly fine, needs some exercise and stuff, a bit bossy but okay with that.  So, Richard Carpenter is not all that daunting.

Grossed Out

I detest these weird things that happen, like that I have to think @ someone else when I want something, like my daddy post @ Richard Carpenter and then my dad had a car accident when 2 of them reduced my Chinese mom's perfect eyesight.

What I Think

I think Ellen just is mad at you for nothing to show off if your life is dreary.  Why does she get mad so easily?  I just said shit for fun and later took it back and said something else..  What's the big deal?  My dad suffered a car accident..

Wig

I'm getting this wig: link.
Tumblr

Lesson

What is Karen Carpenter's message to the world?

Is it right??

Another Full Day

Another Full Night

more to clean in my room

^Friends With Benefits^ Know-It-Alls..

I always thought being older did that.

Whooo

made me not care @ piano and voice, whooo.. Tim Burton!  Now, I'll start anew!

TV

I watched some of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" online, my TV not even set up in my room.  She seems to be doing fairly well.  I have to go to bed and wake up early.

I liked her Beats music stuff whatever it's called.  I also liked watching Vine, the family with the little girl that came out at the end though I didn't like the way dad was holding her, and something else .. oh yes prizes, very funny costumes!

Why??

So, why are people all just mean to me?  Did I say it enough, yet?  Huh, huh?

Problem

Ellen you are bad, you have no way of saying no.  You and Richard just keep talking and then stop when you find we are younger and act like something's wrong.  What?  Nothing happened.  It's not magic.

UNracist

Easily, people are not racist.  Just ignore them.

The World

So, I just sit here watching the world think it's Ellen DeGeneres to me?

Grumps

So, people are so grumpy they don't want us to watch them meet Ellen.

Changed Muh Mind

I'm gonna dye it.

Busy

Tomorrow morning I go somewhere, see you when Ellen comes on, will bring my cell tho.  Nothing Wednesday.  =]  Par-tay.

Videos

@ my dad's accident + Ellen + R. Carpenter

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5

Problem

Like things with others, my 1st catch of my new room is with these problems.

Videos

I made some against Ellen.  They are loading.  It's @ the shit that happens here.  I don't really know who started it.  I'm not totally against Ellen, I don't know what she does.  I don't want to unravel shitty messages.  My dad's car accident ^means^ something.  It jerked at my beautiful Chinese mom's eyesight!  Stupid Orlando-inians!!

Should I be worried @ saying stupid?  I just want this post to go by smoothly!

My Sorrow and Woe

I got an gay disgusting interrupted click in my sorrow, and I lost feelings stunned and horrified, like I'd been on a spell and that I'd want to do that.

Well

Something else will happen, but I am sorry Ellen thinks I'm a horseshit farmgirl.

I guess we'll just say it-

My mom is stupid to make fun of my weight.

Mobile

may or may not post

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Always Asks

My therapist alwyas asks, like anything @ Ellen, etc.  No response!

Why I Curse

Ellen won't stop remembering when I was mad at a time before and thinks it's in me more than others.  I don't really curse often, and you can't give me punishments others don't get.  Why do you make me mad?  I may contact the police @ Ellen, maybe even my aunt.

Website Update

Do's and Don't's

I will use curse words possibly when upset but unravel my thoughts after and apologize..

Problem

So even after you are sorry for getting mad at someone who really did something to you .. you end up seeing the other person think you're there to kiss their feet!?

Dear Daddy

Is Richard Carpenter trying to differentiate Asians, alienate them, from European?

Ew! Gay!

Isn't Portia defiant for no reason?  She doesn't deserve you more than everyone else.

Upset

Do you realize how much I'm bombarded @ "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" in a crappy direction?

Stating the Verdict

You can't act like you can punish me.  You all are just shit to me and lie and are mean.  I mean even someone young got the word of safety.  You trying to k*** me?

Problem

Now, I'm getting negative messages cuz I used the word shit but didn't mean it as someone.

I did think of it as someone before and not say but not the way you want to think.

A Break

Ellen you look older.  Guess it's not because of me, contrary to popular belief systems.

2 Kinds of People

Some people are 1 thing or another.  Why not chose who you are like??  :|

Not What I Thought..

I thought you were outta my life.  Isn't this like the 1 thing you shouldn't do?

Problem

You all are encouraging my bad friends~

Your Problem

You seem upset.  Why not sort it out?  Maybe, you don't exercise like me.  Honestly??

New Videos

Me Singing

1 - Rainy Days and Mondays
2 - Top of the World
3 - Close to You

Believe

I know Ellen does stuff to cancel stuff out, and it works.  However, I don't have the same track history.  Anyway, I know that when I do something for real it doesn't work, too, just because of my race so I don't have to listen to anyone.

News to Spread

I saw an obese kinda touchy feely mamma with 4 kids, the eldest looked Spanish and had bubbly fat skin and 1 nail with white at the end cut crookedly..  She was looking at me like "this is my .. lesson" you know, her disposition?  I'm sure it's made its mark.  No, I didn't do anything wrong, but I slept on the bus.  She was in front of me facing me, though, but I was already that tired and gonna sleep anyway most likely..

No pun intended, just feel sorry and wanna help.

O Boy

Dear Little Ellen!

I just watched 2 of your wonderful videos on YouTube!

was upset at my mom on the inside

My room is stressing me out.  I told you I was sick and why I got up.

On a Roll

Wasn't even watching to see her but the little girl and now the gift scene.  Why is Ellen so mean?  I got mad online, but I don't do things like that little boy.  I'd probably smile and admit I was uncomfortable, at this point in life.

Why I Like the Show

Maybe cuz she's popular, but I feel like I'm not good enough to watch it but still good enough for other things..

How'd You Feel

If people always acted insulting each day to you like me?

OK

I should have just said technically I don't believe I gave forth the battle of any such message..

In a Rush

I'll manually disclaim my point in saying shit I do not mean poo.. what else could I have said in a rush??

Worried

I am worried @ losing all or any of Ellen.  I was just expressing myself against her mistakes.  No one likes me for my race, so.. if I was just being helpful someone would leave me.  Leave now or leave naturally.

Sad

I got a pounding message from Ellen I feel.  I don't really like that shit.

MAH THERAPIST

She 1st acted like she stimulated my brother because she knows I called her stupid because she's really mean and unprofessional sometimes.

Whoo

I think my mom deserves an apology from others.

Who Deserves an Apology (Not Me I Don't Want It)

...

Bored and Watching TV Online..

I thought people in Orlando were messing with my dad.  Got tired of listening to music.

That's just her.

If you are jealous of me GET THE FUCK OFF YOUR ASS.

WOW YOU JUST RUIN MY RELATIONSHIP

*ELLEN*

I don't want anything on you, but that's a mean way to say you don't wanna talk to me like those friends you all take to.

I just wanted to try to get your attention didn't expect anything weird.

Mad?

May I also interject to ask what's up with Renee Fleming?  I wonder if she knows that I follow her and was busy and missed her on TV once..  I kept being under the impression it had to be online.  My room isn't even set up.

Mad More

That lady is just being mean, too.  She will negate me because of race.

What

People wanna see Ellen, and you can't make it your business to ruin it for others.

Problem

You idiots on Ellen that dad just called Ellen shit, a nigger.  So, how is it I do not deserve to say what I think of you like I just have?

*I almost *whammed* my table*

IQ

Wow, Ellen, are you mad at me?  Guess you don't need me at all..  You just shit shit in people's faces and then get mad at nice people for nothing!

You think the world is concrete and that nothing is complicated, it's either A or B and you can't say anything.

Wow

The parents are just there so tacky nodding their heads, too young-looking to have a good kid.

I guess Baby Boomers should not have been born, their parents were young.

CooCoos

All anyone says is they would know what I'm gonna say, but you know that of anyone, so SHUT UP.  ..Am I a nigger?

Wow

Wow, Ellen, I'm tired of your show, the people on it are rude to me.. or is it just plain stupid? too

Sick

I feel tired and a bit full and keep tasting the crackers within my body.

Weird

People think I mean something I don't.  They think everything is 1 or the other.  I thought maybe it wasn't, but like sometimes the way it's said.. seems to connect to something.

BLEH WATER

Cleaning

My Room

Upset?

My aunt can't be upset with me.  I am an adult and I make my own decisions.  She needs to get a life otherwise.

Bed Again?

I was gonna watch some of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" online but am not finished with my room, so see you when I guess, I'll be missing the show.. hopefully not long.

Dreams

I remember Richard Carpenter answered in all lowercase and I saw him, big, in a doorwa like in the dark.  I was passing in a caravan.  We were supposed to like be picking osmething in school.  If I didn't kep moving I'd fall behind.  I started ahead and was trudging through ahead some.  There was a place where I shot.  I was with Jimmy Fallon and like someone like him or him came out, I was with 1 old bestie at the time.  Like, someone was coming to hurt me.  There was a thing where you shoot toward the center of hte circle from the last dream.  We walked some, and I had to keep looking for danger.

Dream

I was in a big thing where it's like a circle and toward the middle you see like an animal.  I came outta 1 and was asking what the panda bear was for.  We just passed something neat, like maybe regular bigger bears.  I think there were babies of these bears.

Nitey

Going to bed soon.  :(  Cleaning to do!!

My Room

Such a mess but so much arranged, too.  Must finish!

Nice

Nice music commercial, Ellen.  *ellen is that you*

You really let it out.  Like a movie @ Ellen!

Recurring Problem

I keep thinking people are scared I said "oh no" when my dad came home cuz I wanted to see him and not to homework.  Something to talk about or do.

Flute

$120-$130

with accessories and books

Potential

I had the chance to go through life unpunished.  I DO know I am not supposed to really be bad and I DO know caps are okay.  I AM NOT bad.  I just make mistakes like everyone!  I thought my life was an experiment and I never saw the people and things I was promised.  I slipped in school for reasons beyond my control.  I am beaten for taking care of my health.  Worry @ school, sometimes need to relax and get away from the noises and people who will never be nice to me.  YIKES!

I was looking @ the pictures of Miami Beach or Miami.  It reminds me of birth.

Sunday, February 2, 2014

Real Organ

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/six-schubler-chorales-wachet/id407520516?i=407520659

Declared Major

Vocal Performance + Dance (Ballet) Minor

Please check this out.

1997

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/cantata-140-wachet-auf-ruft/id68971654?i=68971956

Like a Skater

People in band in high school are probably best.

Twitter

I made my header say "part French."

Watching.

On the NFL page there are Tweets @ the game.  There are a lotta semi-mature attractive yet nerdy guys having pretty European-looking babies.  It feels like hte 1980s again, so I am happy for that.  I want to be there for them.  So, I am not having kids.  I'm not ready.  I don't want other kids jealous.  I am an attractive artistic romantic figure.  When I am 40, I may still be young and sire a new generation of humans.  That's far away.  I think someone wants to marry me and wants kids.. but I decided to naturally plan a boy then a girl maybe a year younger, you know right after.

No Friends

I will not stand people not talking to me because of Tim Burton like oh I know what you're gonna say so I hate you.  WTF does that mean?

Why even do that to me?  I will find friends someday.

Forgotten or Left Behind

Why does Ellen just believe in adults?  She did that and thinks good kids should be forgotten and possibly hurt.

Bleh Bleh Bleh ~ Bleh Bleh

Why does Ellen keep telling me stuff if something happens to me?!  I don't want to even think @ it.  I can do "what" she believes the South has done alone.  I am from there.  What, so you can do it, too?  Maybe, people from the South should not do it.  How will you get along with people from Europe if you are mean to everyone who is better than you?

Loony

Are Ellen and Chloe Moretz insane about being judgemental based on ancestry?

Doo .. U re mem ber me

Remember when we used to live to make life nice and do things at our pace and know success lies ahead?

Staying European

Don't let black people make you less European to people in Europe, don't die for people born in 1960!

Feeling-less

People think that things in life are important, and it's true you think you have no feelings.

All the Time?

Several things bothered me.  Exactly how fun is it to say ooh Christina someone thought of something you didn't think of anything like it, you just used their basic good idea.  Ev ery time!

No Chances

I'm me.  I can't listen to anyone else.  You'll just say to do something stupid 1 day, I know for sure.

Like, you said something and I stopped thinking.

Baiting

She's just saying only grandparents age is important to subdue naughty fans and impress our strict parents when like me I didn't do anything wrong.

Taking Sides

What do you think of how Ellen thinks she's innocent, smiles defiantly like we're shit .. and thinks that grandparents are the only thing that are worth it and not young people?  That's like killing a baby.  "Bye bye to my grandson?"

The Superbowl - The National Anthem

The Superbowl - The National Anthem

Me Singing the National Anthem

Stuck-Ups From New Orleans

People with New Orleanian heritage think they are the only perfect 1s.  Like, they were more modern before us supposedly and anything we do they don't like.

Superbowl

Wathcing Online @ NFL

Home Sweet Home!

Does Ellen trust anyone other than Mommy?

Schizophrenic Stuff

Does Ellen always animal in 2 sides of an issue?

Weird

Everyone said I was talented at everything, especially arts, until Tim Burton made a statement.  I never wanted to ruin him.

Firefighters!

The people here want me to like stop thinking how I do.. like you know what I do that's none of their business, I think my life in private in a way.

Anyone Know?

Anyone know what's going on?  I hear tantrum-like poundings.. not sure it was the laundry machines.  Like a aluminum pan.

Superbowl Sunday

Got the most expensive Football @ Wal-Mart.

Nitey

Was crocheting.

Going to bed soon.

Can talk tomorrow or Monday.. unless I'm just too into the cleaning.

Pros

How pro would you say are the people Richard Carpenter has worked with after Karen passed away?

Dying Mah Hair!

I got this color.

link

Something Else Pleasing

I heard light footsteps in the hallway earlier.  I called my dad after.

Pretend Ghosts

The garage door to my memory has never creeked.  The washing and drying was on.  When I did something with a graveyard online something metal in my room, which my dad and I just painted, fell.  It's still very messy, but I cleaned lots of it.  My dad just took out the ladder today.

Raging Crazy

Why do some people fight that they weren't good enough to do something as a kid?

Saturday, February 1, 2014

May Be

Ellen probably is more adept to Florida in ways than us, but we still should be who we are, too.

Decision

I decided if someone goes coocoo on me to negate their coocoo request.

Mobile

may or may not post

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My Opine

These Baby Boomers follow crap from their parental generations the way Chloe does them, just to sinfully get stimulated.  I do that, too, get sinfully stimulated, but not this kind of sin!

Problem

It seems that if her fans are happy, Ellen is happy.  I'm not watching cuz I'm cleaning my room and don't have the TV even set up in here..  I don't believe I should necessarily watch in the living room.

Also, these noises in my room are racistly glossing over my saying that they were annoying before..

Well, I mean, yea, Ellen, but I gotta do mah room!  It's fun when you know she's read you online.  I haven't found others who seek her out, like leave a trail to an attractive blog like me.  I know some people she would like.  I'm not baiting myself, just saying it's available and you don't even have to do anything with anyone!


In saying something like that, I might not be perfectly a worshipper, but you'd see through the problems for some reason.  I'm always obsessed over things like Tim Burton talking too much to his "girlfriend" and I guess sometimes his kids..  :/  Oops, I meant random strangers who are just lucky- and not me.  I see the kids putting out their hands in L.A. I think.  What I meant by his gf I didn't really mean it but realized that's what he did.  She really is critical of him..  I think his gf like Richard Carpenter mocks fans.. my dad just came in and seemed upset that I posted or attempted to talk to Richard via his facebook fan group.  Well "page."

Also, in my groups I think Ellen was messing around again.  They both made me utter something fast as a comeback.  I am upset about this.  Ellen acts like I hurt her feelings if I say something @ it.

With his gf it even is more for Tim Burton fans than her own that she gets mad.  If she is more critical of him than monitoring herself, I wonder how desperate this 3rd person I labeled that is.  About Richard, he knows he has that in him.  He said on his website too he is not looking for a professional partner, contrary to "what we read."  I didn't read it, but that's a nice thing to say-  I mean I found it the same.  I don't think Richard is mean, but I don't wanna be asked why I like someone, like in grade school the kids leaving me with no friends and me feeling uncomfortable and like I'm not in the scene.  I'm not being mad @ Richard, just talking for fun and don't even mean things in bad ways, just like for with the gf for instance how they are.  I feel if I say something, they also do something different.  It's a feeling you might get, and they might read you up.

What's this acting coy by the experimenters and maybe something for Ellen to laugh at me .. supposedly saying I can't have Ellen cuz she's better than me and then saying that means I'm also second in normal people, that I'm not quite as gregarious.. meaning I will never make it up the ladder?  That's not something to laugh at, but it's funny for other people.  I found it was said in a rude way, yea, but all the same seems a good message.  I feel I am more pleasant.  These people are a bit mean and I mean I don't want to be a part of them.  They hurt me, anyway.  I think it was better I never met them.

Nitey

I have more to say but am lying down and sleeping and listening to music.

New Videos

February 1, 2014
1 - 3.5/5 - Rainy Days and Mondays
2 - 7.5/10 - Rainy Days and Mondays
3 - 2/10 - Far From the Home I Love
3 - 4/5 - All Who Hunger

Don't Like It

I don't like Tim Burton ruining life, saying we're all in trouble.  Let's take away what's his and see what he feels like.  He he he?  Don't listen to people like my old friend.  I didn't say anything "bad."

Cleaning

Have books and videos to sort, ladder needs to be taken care of.  Move @ more furniture, get rid of some I hope.  Store some things in a box for now.

Cleaning

I already got the bed, sofa, and shelf in place.  Stuff all over!
Negative Blog

You got that joke?

No offense, really, please don't read into things like that friend, it isn't right, I'm just trying to communicate via typing..

I mean joking @ @ Ellen..

"Take it down!"

I find my old friends a bit possessive of the attention they got because I ^did something^.  Like, they just think yea I deserve that in a different way than they'd be like if the world did not resolve around Johnny Depp.  They aren't like me.  I get more attention, but I really deep-seatedly said I didn't want it.  Now, people like it, it's something they can hold onto against Depp and Burton.

All I otherwise say is if Ellen thinks I can't be famous then her show is a slave for us.

Singing versus Acting

Well, acting in movies is more like being a fashion model.  Acting means acting in a theater.  Singing is better than theater acting, but movie acting is the best.  There are good theater actors who are movie actors, like in I think Diary of a Wimpy Dog or whatever.  There was a lady.  I think her dad was a successful boxer.

That's how you make it, you go to Hollywood where they do film.

Thought Associations

Stuck in my head!  Get out there child stars who are already in high school!  Make the world a better place than you hiding waiting to trap me.. or you're just a complainer like I was told I was as a teenager.  Maybe we need to complain because it seems hard to succeed and have everyone know you.  We should all get in so many movies at the same time!!  What do you got to lose?  No one might recognize you??  Dunno.  Safe in a different way, too.  Get out online, discover [things like] Blogger and IMDb.  Find out more, online.

Juicy Gossip

Lovely Bella.

Anyway I said simply for Chloe not to go sideways and assume something that isn't about Southerners without Southern parents.  Now, Bella says Chloe is the 1 over me just temporarily.  How do you rank people?  Not nice.

So Uncontrolling

I can't even control how my cheeks look.

Outlandish and Clingy

You know how outlandish Baby Boomers are about getting attention.. and subduing anyone younger ultimately?

Well, people think life is some big grand effect and that only really good people can provide this.  They go off and expect others to do shit for this and in the end they are the baby to the early Boomers, like 1950?

Stuck

Explore Talent is not good enough.  I need to get better and apply to an agency.  1st must clear room.

Strange

link

Friday, January 31, 2014

Interesting Facebook Post by Me

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Well, I've lived in gambling areas: Jacksonville FL, always lived in Florida or the New Orleans are with my parents. I thought Las Vegas was an exciting place. I guess it is funny to say that you can get any culture in the U.S. nor anywhere for that matter if you had relatives that moved.. :| I consider myself a Southerner. I know the Floridian culture, seems to sit deeply with me. I have a great expanse of experience in the New Orleans area becoming an adult. I do have different culture from my parents and do not consider myself someone with being raised by New Orleanians. My dad traveled most of the country as an adult but not like California for instance nor New Orleans. The best I can say for him is the side near NYC in Pa. that I think moved to Cleveland. I visited Erie myself and really took to it, though that is not all where he is from. As for posting @ gambling, I mean it looks like fun. I dunno, I mean I am hanging pictures of Miami Beach|SE Fla. in my room, maybe should rethink how good a plan it was I had. I dunno, if I get into clowns and carnivals I can interpret New Orleans in my room, too, with pictures maybe I construct. I'm gonna have to see after I rearrange the room, but it's painted. I understand, though, liking fuzzy di.. =] It's just a symbol for a way of thinking. I think it's the symbol of a spunky mood of a certain area, often in the South or probably in old NYC. Same with leis of flowers. I have no clue how to do Mardi Gras nor New Orleans in here. It's all blue for Miami (Beach.)

LOL! This IS funny! Thanks for the response!!

Also

I am also whiter than some people, the way you've discluded me for respecting things that are not white.  Just forget it.

My Want

Why can't I just be who I want?

More Questions

Before Tim Burton you wouldn't do that to someone.  Maybe, Bella likes Chloe like that.  But I am from the South and am older.

Defiance

No one else does what Ellen does.

Desperate

That's Chloe Moretz.

2 Cultures

I still like what I get from my dad being from up North, which you currently are not jealous of from the way you behave....  I didn't say I was from Tennessee nor do I like that 1 state better than all the rest.

Some Things Funny

You think I can't say that because of the N word thing with Nell.  Nell rhymes with Hell.  Ellen can't get mad at me for not watching her show, too.. I want to but she believes Chloe is more Southern.  That's puttin' me down.  How will I get aroun' to her show?  I'm upset because she's trying to take away my chance with her show as a fan.  If I am born in the South I found you don't have the right to take away my freedom of speech on that issue. Older Adult Maturity Post: Just to watch literally a kid from the South "feel good."  Yea, older adult post, that's me.

Not Good Enough

What right do you have to pretend you care about your culture and I am not a good enough person?!

eee Bay

oooh pretty

Being Born in 1997-8

You have to also be good, like attractive.  It doesn't fall on your lap.

What About

light rich honey brown

Blonde Hair Dye fo' Mee!

dark golden blonde

or light honey blonde

Bad

To joke @ that a good person born in 1985 didn't keep away from being treated as well as someone born around 1991.

Concerned

@ the precious people born in 1997 and 1998.  Did they have a good ^private^ life?  I don't see any signs.  Debate on if I'd care or if I did.  I remember the kids born around 1992 as 15-year-olds, then another similar type of wave 1997-8 now.

Before

Mine was like a honey blonde, the lightest 1.  It does come off a bit yellow.  That's why I shaved it off.

Hair

I guess I'm lightest golden brown or darkest blonde.

Contacts, blue or blue-green, which look blue and nice, so.  The blue is not baby blue.

Still Painting

Will finish that tonight.  Maybe put my room back together tomorrow.  I have cleaning, too.  I wanna bag some books and DVDs I don't use to make it clenaer.  I do have drawers of things that's hopeless.  I'll try to file my papers but see I need a bigger filer probably.  Laundry @, too.

Dream

I had an impersonal dream with things like space and Richard and Karen Carpenter, like they did it this time, like maybe Karen had passed away.

What to Think @

Sarah should focus on what's really important- S. Brightman when going into space!  Sure little things must come up from the recent past, but I know or sure this is also her lifelong dream and lots of famous people are doin' it!!

Likeable or Unlikeable?

Why do people like famous people?
New Video of Me Singing
Good Mo'ning People

Cute

Isn't Sarah Brightman?

Something to Know

My driver home was like driving weird and I lifted up frustrated and he had something against me.  I recorded my singing and it wasn't the same with something, something happened I mean.

Thursday, January 30, 2014

Mobile Soon

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Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Oscars

I just watched a nice video of Ellen to host the Oscars.

I was wondering.

I might seem awkard to some people.. if it weren't for the messups with the fame of Johnny Depp and Tim Burton.. but I AM NOT AN AWKWARD PERSON.  I'm gittin' outta this hole'a'shit..
"The Mad Blog - Anything Goes"
Nitey Soon

New Dressewear

Did you ever consider how I abhor those new coats with petite waists but like myself?

Ah lawst mah dreams

in new orleans

Finding the Right People????

Since Tim Burton, people have beaten me down so as I'm not as attractive, and now you want all the attractive people regardless of your relationship to people like this.

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Me Singing

Video of Me Singing!!

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TV Schedule

I should be finished painting Friday and may catch up then.

So, then, after that, I'll ge the bedding and decorations maybe bedding this weekend decorations next weekend.

Color to Dye My Hair in Like 2-3 Months

(Rich) Cherry or (Very) Light Gold

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Missed Post

Nitey!

Dream

I was in a small plane waving by to the Carpenters and a special bye to Richard cuz he wouldn't die.  They were going to war..

Comment

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I used to be more expressive. I'm listening to you sing now, and you sound like Celine Dion quality. Bravo! I'm still learning, fun eh? That song sounds almost country-like. Why don't you sing something by the Carpenters??

Excuse

Adults like to pretend I'm bad so they don't give me any attention.
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Check out..

..the new Facebook cover I have.

I believe..

..my old friends are bad people because when I felt bad and crazed from being stuck in the world my friends unfriended me and didn't actually say to stop e-mailing them, 1 did in a way or after awhile.  I shouldn't have to think of them now.

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Lately

I don't get upset when someone kids, but they insist and I feel a little irritated and eventually I am mad.

PSA

People in 2002 got really mad if you even showed a happy family on TV much less complain about them complaining in private.

Sorry to be the messenger, but I'm also in a certain situation.

Facebook Post

Yay!  I see there you have shots @ Disneyland?  I've never been.  I did go on the merry-go-round, teacups, and Dumbo.  Teacups don't do a thing to me.  I guess something that might be shareworthy is when I went on the Dumbo ride not only was I screaming but my lever wouldn't work after I cranked it up at the start.  I've been on the Harry Potter ride and I screamed the whole time.  It probably bothered people, but at the same time for some reason they actually thought I'd be scared when for me that was actually out of the question..  My brother too I think was worried of "what" I would do on the supposedly scary ride..

You know, I also recorded things at Disney such as my singing in the Haunted Mansion and that I didn't scream on other rides.  When they've fixed Splash Mountain, I wonder if I will scream again!  I don't go on Tower of Terror but wanted to.

Spoilers: http://goo.gl/girV8s

My favorite part unfortunately about Disney World that I've known now is the Main Street Electrical Parade.  I see it's been taken down from Disneyland.  Am I right?  I dunno.  I waited for over 2 hours at the entrance last time.

It seems like we look the same!  Anyone else think so?

*huh huh huh huh huh* *leans over*

Well, as for the postman aspect, I guess the reason I did e-mail was because I liked writing to my friend, her idea, when we lived near.. she won't speak to me now.  Anyway.. I was always hung up about not recieving so much e-mail and no IM-ing.  Now, I'm mostly a blogger but still a forum board poster.

Thank you so much for posting this wonderful video!

Worries

I was like ah have I gone blinde!  I slept in my contacts.

I couldn't get up and move around.  At 1st, it was more by choice.  I wanted eating with my mom.  It was so weird, my body was like I dunno wrapped in shells almost in the manner of a cocoon?  It was pieced together like still malleable drying iron machinery.  It was like cracky.  I was put together maybe like a computer.  I felt if I got up as though I would feel a funny feeling of discombobulation.

So, it was weird.  I was very upset.  My mom would not stop bugging me, and I used to not even wanna come out to see the doctor!  I felt almost forced to leave after throwing my laptop, which was breaking though it got better but then turned off.  I was bugged all through the group, made a joke of.  Someone made my nose too slick and I supposedly can get it back!  That guy behind me!  It feels Ellen is just telling them right and left to hurt me in some way each time.  I know I was so good the 1st time at a group.  These groups are not as good as I imagine.  What else?  I was bothered other ways.  I'm also made to feel I deserve nothing but hurt coming up.  So.

Also, I was looking up and out, it was so weird.  My eyes and my body.  In there I also scuffed a bump in my boots.  I had to scrench things rather than hit things and say a word I didn't like more than once.

Was I bad?

I couldn't stand the little things people said and did to me!

I mean, what was the worst, they acted like it was all over and who knows what they'd do.  My mom hurt my head a little in the car, so I was upset.  Then, she just prodded me more.  I should have gotten over it, but my mom was watching, I know.  It confused me altogether.  Why accept it?  Maybe, it wasn't that bad, though.  I went in, furthermore, and this lady wouldn't say hi to me just my mom.  I went in and was bothered, away from my mom but with that girl in.  You know how much it frustrates me?..  Ugh!  What else??  :/

Dream

I was feeling so bad and didn't get up thinking it'd injure me from being so fed up.

My dream was kooky.  I remember looking for something carnivalish in a sewer from Batman..  In the end I was looking to see a video, saw a picture.  I don't remember what it was about!  Just that that was its nature.  I was also trying to remember something.  It seemed a bit dangerous, like someone would hurt me and I had to be on the lookout, like a sewer hound.  I saw a show on monsters recently.

You all are sinners.

I don't need to turn to anyone and yes need not my parents who are m.. me.

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A Flavorite Story

There was a girl named Christina with bouncing smooth, silky, thick cherry, red hair.  Her eyes were pure blue with crystals about like hands on a clock.  She was from Sunshine, Florida.  She was up in New York at this time.  She was all bouncy, year was 1900.  She had on a green dress and pale green bonnet and stared into the clear open.  "Judie," she said in her "rich" voice.  "Dear!"  She was 3 years younger and followed behind out in the wide opened.

Just as they went a bit further, a man in yeller came.  "Gals! Wait up!"  He as like a knight in shining errmor (armor.)  Then interrupted a more mature lady, "Hello!!"  "Hello!!"  Heavy clouds came over.  "Girls!" said the gentleman. "You have a place to go?"  "No!" said Chris..  So, the fair maiden took her arm and pulled her in naturally by the waist.  The man picked up the little girl.  They went over to a carriage at long last and rode off into the sunset, storm clouds behind.

Story

There was a father of 10 children named Richard Carpenter with his lovely wife, Mary Carpenter.

There was another family with the mom named Ellen DeGeneres and the dad named Syracuse Ny. She had 3 beautiful children.

There were many other families with children and many single people, as well, without any family..

A little girl named Diana Quinn sat on the lap of her father and he patted her back as she almost choked on her food some.  "Ugh!" wittered Christina.  I have ta eat this frik kin food to get energy but I always choke and have problems peeing in public!

Julie Gardener burped some of her lovely pizza, like a little baby would burp!  Christina eyed her, "Nice day we've been having, eh?"  "Picnic!"  "What's that?"  "It's been a picnic."  "Oh, yea."

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6/10 - Top of the World

Monday, January 27, 2014

Wanna know something funny, anyone??

I got a doctor set at age 3 but had a Hollywood Minnie towel.. it just got a hole in the past year.

Hey

Ellen I told you.  I'm considered shit because I'm from where you're from, the area or area around.  All these fancy schmancy folks dressed up and spunked.  Professionals in what they do as adults.  Orla Fallon the Irish singer.. and so on and so forth.  :|

Proof of a Problem

I wouldn't deal with the made-up insults if it weren't for the issue involving Nell Burton or her mom|parents or whoever.

You all were just

really mean to me.  I'm told I'm shit for race and where I've lived.

:| I have a situation.

Now, people have already ^wondered^ if Orla Fallon is better than me like I'm just shit and that she's like a ***y but "youthful" and even in some positive typical way childlike.

They wonder if this that and the other wants to dream of being in a movie.

What about me!  Leave me alone!!

Mistake

The mistake Ellen made was not thinking I was as good as her.  You don't go and see just me naked.  You see me how I am online.  Ellen thinks she's juicy from "what she did" as a kid.

She's ready for the world, and I am not really against her.

She brings up unsolved suggestions as though they are solved, such as this issue as closed.  Fine, make me 2nd tier!  It's not my fault nor my wish!

What's it to ya?

I already wanted to go to ballet to get in shape but could hardly keep up but was not bored.

I thought I should post my feelings about something..

..1 of the women who lead the support group kept getting up and leaving and doing something like she was the ***y young mother and the best there.  I know the older lady got really upset.

I have something else.  If you think I'm good enough now you won't later.

What is your thing with me?  I forget now what else I was gonna say.

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So, this girl stooped so low as to talk to me?

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I did say that I wanted to play with her and that I knew she'd rather play with someone famous like Richard Carpenter or I mentioned Celine Dion.  Certainly beats Yo Yo Ma as the only 1.

She thinks now I can't play with anyone famous because I dropped out of the role and said she'd want some adult.  Well, I'm some young adult, as she is kind of in my generation..  Anyway, the reason she wouldn't want to play with me is because I'm not an adult figure and I have problems that should not be.. like Tim Burton though I like him a whole lot.  He just influenced things in a bad way or in a good way and people took it their own way.  He does go along with this sometime, but what can you expect?  Also, I know Helena Bonham Carter has bad messages, too, "got them out of the way."  They still exist today actively.  She knows that.  She is nice now, but these things should not really have ever come about.

I feel I didn't fully comment, but it's nice just to know you mentioned it.  These girls are so sarcastic.  They are like bashful about their parents.  Well, I'm not so young that I do that.  Not at all.

Problems

I decided to ignore everyone @ the experiment, but they think they got 1 on me.  I do have thoughts against this.  Also, I thought they stopped and were nice now.

Titanic

"Jack, I love you!"  She grabs his hand and holds him up.  Her hat flies away leaving her sparkling blonde hair flowing in the wind.  Her green eyes look at him in a cross at the situation.  He doesn't expect to live.  "Rose, I love you!"  He tried to get back up on the boat but was pulled down to swim beside the lifeboat.  They get away, and he is in critical condition.  He is sick and stays home a lot.  Rose is a teacher and politian now with her Bachelor's in an Honors side and in Philosophy.  He hears her heals marching in, "Oh, I'm fine," he says.  She checks his temperature and goes on to prepare food.

More Naughty Stories

A little girl had a mother and father and close friends her age and knew other people, as well.  When the town went on a big caravan, the little girl had to be picked up in the story.  She had started to cry in the middle of a break.  "Mommy," she said blindly, "When will we arrive?"  There were some older girls adventuring in the creek spearing flopping fish.  1 was named Christina, and she had smooth wavy red hair.  Her blue eyes sparkled in the distance, almost childlike.

2 Sides

There was a guy named Romeo DiCaprio and a lady named Ellen DeGeneres.  A girl named Christiana's eyes bulged out in awesome hypnosis for what she saw laid before.

Joanna said to Mr. Rick, "How long until the Spanish Armada arrive?"  Jackie said, "Yea, how long!!"  He picked up Jacqueline.  Now now you 2!  Joanna left and found some older girls while the girls her age stayed somewhere else.  Joanna paced on the side of the bay.  She would never fall in.  She jumped down into the fort and there were some teenage boys in the distance.

The Real Miss Tarzan of the Apes

There was a Tarzan named Richard Lynn Carpenter.  His wife Jane's name was Karen Anne Carpenter.  They had a baby boy together and lived peacefully in the jungle.  They had a 2nd boy.

1 day 1 boy went off and got eaten by a snake, swallowed whole, suffucated to death.  Jane said, "Tarzan, we must leave now."

There was a bearer of news named Christina Reading Chang.  She gave a testimony like a witch in a transe of what was to come.  They met a nice little girl named Chloe Moretz who said, "Whoops," looked, "I gotta go.."  And then she made the Tarzan call, "AA AAA AAA!"  A lovely lily lady with a pot of water said, "Hi, I'm Jackie Evancho, may you be blessed by many spirits," and she evaporated up into nothing.

Jane ran home with the other boy, while Richard stayed, confused.  Jane was the most beautiful lady, long and slender but not strong.

A fully loaded girl climbed outta the water and said "Me wan' me wan'.."  The zombie came toward him and a smile broke out- "Ah," said he.  He ran away and up a tree.

Finally, this Tarzan found a place where swam black people and then descended some white people who he found lived in a noble town, but they had to fend for themselves to live.  1 was awesome mostly in white with a hat bonnet with yellow flowers on it.  He was hypnotized and fell inlove with the young widow.

Picture

Ellen as a kid in diapers?

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Reminder

Orla Fallon reminds me of Zoey Deschanel.  Both have French last names, like Ellen.

I have sinned!

I look at Miami and think of home!

Also, no one cares what I did that was nice from Fort Lauderdale, me in particular is all.  A place where people can be nice I mean like.  My past is erased!

I'm thinking of..

..getting a ferret.

What is your undying opinion of-

-girls from New Orleans who are black who are attractive and cute as opposed to girls who look white or European but from a suburb there?

Sunday, January 26, 2014

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Problem

I'd love to get together with other singers and musicians..  I mean I'm not ready to give a show.  I have too much of personal problems.

Music

I found an agency for when I am ready to perform around and have the papers to record.  I hope to do this with my dad this week.

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1 - 6/10 - Rainy Days and Mondays
2 - 6/10 - Top of the World
3 - 1/10 - Let It Go - Disney's "Frozen"
4 - 6.5/10 - Angel of Musi
5 - 7/10 - Golden Afternoon
6 - 8.5/10 - Be Happy

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Here's the story.

Well, I get judged for bad words coming to my head.. people are punishing me like how would you like that like those supposedly bad kids.  I forget the rest.  You did something so that I notice that stuff.  I did hear people curse a lot in the New Orleans area.  That's the only reason why.  That's why I won't contend to any self-beating with that.

Question

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(A Canadian asking if Richard could have saved Karen.)

I don't know what he could have done.

Well, Pleasing News to Hear!!

The Stewie Song by Tracy Carpenter!!! - YouTube

www.youtube.com/watch?v=KcrXlPQq2y4
Jul 14, 2010 - Uploaded by Rob Melchiorre
Carpenters: Gold: Greatest Hits (Full Album + Bonus Track)by ... Little Altar Boy - Richard Carpenter and Mindi ...

Mind if I ask..

..why the Carpenters make their daughters not all like Traci??

Well

That girl knoti seems like she's more of a Carpenter type, but I actually did music, the way her parents did.

I know how to do this and of whom I am talking.

What if I am the best of who is not related to Richard Carpenter?

Already Questions

I guess they are wondering @ how good their dad is.  They think Karen is better.  They seem to have an easy life but have to learn how to be a person and think like everyone, maybe have it too easy.  I sometimes don't want my dad to touch me I know, so he kinda doesn't, at all, now.  We still interact a lot, but we have ***ual interests in others.  I did say I was safe and asexual and poly***ual or polya***ual.  It means I don't engage in ***.

Having a Best

Well, it depends.  I'd say that a 15-year-old Olympic ice skater is #1 in 1 way.  But she's not #1 in all ways.

Well

It has to be admitted Richard Carpenter is a private man and in an uptight situation that his daughters and son have to be the best.  *no offense, again*

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Well, being gay seems to mean having parasexuality (from paraphilia http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/paraphilia?s=t.)  There is nothing wrong with his family, but he seems to obsess over things in a different way considering all the Asians he's ever done for -and his love for children?  He probably just pretends to have strange obsessions over what young people think.  He seems perfectly normal to me and successful in his friendliness.  You can tell I am just jealous of his kids, but I think that's what most people are.  However, I never had strange obsessions as outlandish as wanting to marry Johnny Depp.  Some people have families and maybe only certain kinds of people they can be close to.  I feel in trouble for recently liking my female teacher and wanting to know her personally.  It seems sometimes the attractive 1s are bad but not always..  I just wanna get it out there I care and hope to help teach people to be famous if they want and succeed in pleasing people with their singing, like so they can meet Richard Carpenter assuming he needs something to do.  Myself I admit I do follow him online and would meet him had I a chance.  I mean, with most famous people, their Twitters may be busy but sometimes you can be found out on Facebook, for example or whatever.  If more people posted, maybe they'd go online more.  Guess it'd have to show intelligent thought for some reason that seemed important.  Not just 1 "Richard I <3 you."  More like, I did such and such in music and feel such and such a way.  I feel I will be doing such and such and such and such says or thinks such and such.  You could even talk about music, or acting, itself!

Thank you so much for this post.  I think that people like Johnny Depp, possibly even Tim Burton, or Richard Carpenter would say they are gay or try to get away from the world sexually, like Johnny Depp with Amber Heard.  It wouldn't really help them because they could just say they were pretending because it would be weird to say.  If he didn't have a family, I still doubt he'd be gay..  How can a person feel that they are better than everyone, thinking in general!, that they don't need to make exchanges and make friends as life goes on, being open to people?  My only advice is that you should do things you like best as soon as possible or admit you want something more for yourself to "feel good."  That's perfectly fine with me, but I wanna find out how people meet these people.

My sincere regards for your post and thank you so much for your posting and letting me comment.

Wuzzup

"Ghost Adventures"

Update

I added a people section to my website and added the person I just commented on.

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Well, thank you so much for doing such an interesting post. I hope my comments find you pleased with them.  Renee Fleming must have become very popular.  I do follow her all the time, my dad introduced me to her.  I assume you follow her, too.  If I had to order the people on your list, I might say Ellen is the best, but if I had to list them in order of which I think they meet my own caliber, I'd say (1) Richard Carpenter (2) Renee Fleming (3) Ellen DeGeneres (4) Karen Carpenter (5) Johnny Depp (6) Mindi Carpenter.

Do any of you find Mindi to be clingy in that picture? and personality-wise with her prestigious family??

Midni's father seems saintly and martyrlike even like Karen.  He should do more for himself and his family and friends..

Well, Johnny Depp was Sweeney Todd and everybody wants him.  Sarah Brightman is pretty popular among nice people I found.

Ellen is there for the kids, I think, like high schoolers and before us.  She has a good voice and probably believes she equates over other singers.

I don't know what Mindi does.  She might have beginner's luck + hard work.  I do not know if she sings the way she dreams, maybe does what her father talks to her about.

I just realized that Richard Carpenter is being attacked with people wanting to meet him and sing like Karen.  He has so far let other races and his daughter sing the songs.  Most famous people do not do this, so that is why.  I am not sure why his daughter Mindi only did this and that his kids are not on Twitter, where famous people post.  All I can say is if no other famous people neither do nothing nothing will happen.  If you are a pianist, you'd do well doing that with other people.  I imagine violin is also fun and you must be very good.  I'm working on some things now.  If you have any ideas and want to do something with me let me know, but I'm in Orlando.  I'm only a keyboard instrumentalist and some sort of singer.  I'm advanced musically and mature but was told to go on a sabbatical for a long long time.  I could send you me playing after I learn something, and you could play along with me and post it online.  I'd love to hear you sing.  Right now, though, I'm learning the Frozen theme on the piano.  I'm not sure if in a few weeks when I have more money will I attempt to play the Carpenters music.  It would be fun to sing that with you.  I can karaoke me singing and you can sing over it.  These are just suggestions.  I imagine it's a worthless idea and think it would be fun if the famous adult musicians would participate with younger prodigees.  They act like we are so worthless or whatever..  I always wanted to be a singer, since I was like 5..and I wanted to be in a singing ensemble.  I don't have any money and didn't make it on something like "The Voice."  I wish we could just get together and record.  I easily found the papers to get the permission to sell.  I do wanna be a movie actress and if I were I'd have money to fly over to like where you live and meet up and play together.  Normal people like us need help from agencies.  I did find 1 before but was not ready and no didn't have any partners.  I so want to sing with other people where we do like harmonies and solos for everyone.  It would be easy to arrange music like this.  I started piano at 9 so it's a bit hard for me.  I can play chords easily, however.  I see you are a young prodigy, though, so perhaps you could showcase your talents or maybe already do.

I hope my reply was interesting and that you liked it lengthwise.  You have a nice post.  I bet you are great at microbiology.  I didn't study English in college so much, just write for fun like blogging and short cute stories sometimes, too.

What I was saying about getting together was an example of how to make something happen, but I know you'd prefer someone more famous or simply to be coordinated with an adult figure such as even Celine Dion or Richard Carpenter himself.  I used to dream of meeting Celine Dion, since it's appropriate, but it was a big no, like no way to do it.  I think things like this are a sin.  Imagine the world today if famous people got together with new real talents.  They certainly got a lot of support.  I knew a lot about Celine Dion and being a piano prodigy.  It's very exciting.  There's no "way."  Actually, with opera, I was inspired to keep it up because of Renee.  I got interested in Karen cuz I liked her and then found her brother, who I also respect.  Singing seems to be a big thing.  It's something for people with a personality similar to like Ellen.  You get together and do some singing, like favorite folk songs of sorts.  You should become more well-known and get around.  When I'm ready for something big, I'd like to sing at public events.  Right now, I'm still resting, painting and setting up my room, the garage.  Hopefully, I'll figure out more about my life as this comes along this next week or 2.  I'm watching TV now, but there's something special about .. like how no one like Tim Burton though he knows his kids will know us.  I wanna see something happen and want my turn someday.  As for Richard Carpenter, I think he should have gotten together with other musicians and do not know why he does not.  I already said I wanted to work with some other people.  I probably will be in a big private school church choir this coming weekend.  It is a small group, though, like 3 singers.  I hate how they disclude some church musicians on a whim for no known reason when it technically counts.  I know it helps with classical opera.  It depends on your voice, too, like are you hoarse or especially sweet and touched?  I think life is short and too many things don't matter.  I don't know what else to say, think I've made a point almost, so.  I'll just say I know you all think I'm actively upset with Richard.  He seems to think it's a tacky fantasy our dreams of the obvious.  I just am upset it seems he's gotten old and hasn't been able to get anyone together.  I have no idea why he thinks there's a problem that the whole world wants to sing with him.  I have not heard enough of him to believe that.  I hope it's just that he can't find the right kind of people cuz I know I can't, but I found you all.  I think we should keep tabs about Richard Carpenter because he is so cute like his sister and about the fact that he needs to socialize himself with other musicians.  I do wanna be a sorta director|educator of music.  Too old for college again maybe like that.  I can learn on my own.  I wish I could help him with that.  I wanna send him a note on how to get to sing in those groups he gets together.  He seems to want it random and not an American nor European.  Maybe, someday, he will be more active.  That's what concerns me.

So, I hope you liked my post, sorry it seems a bit disarranged and long.  I only mean well.  =]

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Hey, you're looking up Richard, too? I see we both found the same blog post. =] I'm still waiting for your next reply you promised, but you don't have to really.


I think Ellen keeps at things whereas other people totally don't seem to do anything like it. I know Depp does, too, but lots of people are jealous of him.


LOL that's good and Johnny Depp, too. 

Saturday, January 25, 2014

Question

Is Lily Rose like her dad as far as wanting to please others?

Happy

Why is Lily Rose and Nell Burton the new me?  I used to have the same opportunities as they have.  I was treated something like that in life.

I'll argue I do get attention but mad attention often.

Update

New Me Online Account - Above on Top
New Website

My 3 Tasks as a Human

1-Pianist
2-Singer
3-Ballerina
Forum

When..

..people get upset at me for spamming my friends, like e-mailing them things as I go that I want to say to them a while past.. like there's 1 friend a little older andother a little younger, both in my class.  Why just pick from people I know to give attention??  I already said that Ellen seems to think everything is for Portia.  I think people live with a real hope to meet her or see lots of people be able to do that..

The reason it hurts my feelings iz cus I feel bad @ it.  I felt trapped with nothing to do, no forum to post on and forgot I could get a blog.

Update

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I figured something out @..

Ellen.  She thinks I'm an animal cuz I'm Chinese cuz I can't do anything she thinks, like the way she's discriminating @ people w|o parents from the South.  Like, I want to talk to someone else from the South.  She says my reaction to her saying no is like being an animal because I'm Chinese.  She is sick, so be nice.

New Videos

Me Singing

2014/01/25
1 - 1/10 - Let It Go - Elsa from Disney's "Frozen"
2 - 2/10 - Both Sides Now
3 - 6.5/10 - Golden Afternoon - Disney's "Alice in Wonderland"
4 - 3/10 - Be Happy

Friday, January 24, 2014

Hey, Dad

Can you get me in a live action of "Frozen???"

Me Thinks

Richard Carpenter is jealous of me dad.  Why?..  He does things other than just music, but he also does music.  That would apply to most people.  I did music more than most people in college my 1st year.  I kept getting kicked out..

Measurements

01-24-2014155.0 pounds31"5'2"

New Videos

Me Singing

2014/01/24
1 - 2:14-2:25 - 6/10 - Top of the World
2 - 5.5/10 - Angel of Music

Nitey

Must Sleep Soon

Shopping

dice

lei

Please

Don't make a scene of me!

Wasn't What

It wasn't what to deny a person of their home heritage.

I D UH

I came up with an idea for my room.  I'm painting it greenish blue.  I will hang up things around it, like dice, get a zebra comforter.

Where I Should Be

I think Ellen thinks I should only do school.  While everyone else luvs.

Problem

I am not living to offer my talents to sinners.

I'm sorry but

I feel that Burton was a blast and it disrupted people's attention span.

What I Feel

I feel that these people have all gone like berserk.  I'm talking now, I can keep a containment of organized thought.

I'd like to get this over with as soon as possible.

Burton, I ain't no scardy cat.

FREEKING MOTHER OF GOD

NO ONE IS THERE FOR ME AND I CAN'T HELP ANYONE.. did Ellen want to publicize something of someone btw? she's sick.. I don't think she'd do it, but I'm afraid she's possibly done things of a related nature

My Housing

No, we did not live in nice houses.  Of course, we weren't too dirty but couldn't always have pets..  So.  You can't say oh you didn't have a decorated life.  That was my parents.  We lived in apartments, too.  I always thought that seemed like a good idea..  I wanted a huge house with stairwells.  Most kids did then, I think.  I mean instead of 2 stories 3!  I had my little adventures.  You can't picture me in a rich southern mansion..  That's all the bloody hell you're looking fer!  I could not find clothes I wanted, like a yaller and orange dress.  And money!

Wonder

Was my cousin's life made to be more glamorous?  Maybe, her dad, though nice, has violent reactions, reminds me of Richard Carpenter but not in that way actually.

Um- right now my eye feels like if I don't temper it could have a heart attack.  It's things like this that make me upset for how people deal the cards of what I've done in life, like accidentally sounded mad cuz I was still upset and feel m..  Oh, I used to feel this.  I just watched some politics, which is the nice northeast..  Did you pick up on everything from each area????

My cousin's mom is my aunt, and maybe they are mean to my cousin because she was mean to me, and maybe my dad isn't like the ugly brother compared to her.  I think he's very attractive, but he's changed so much at different times it seems to me or maybe 1 major change to note.

Okay, now that eye is blurring.

So.. they care about the aunt.  My cousin just seems to have ruined vacation for me.

I'm looking for love and not getting any.  I was asking @ calling my Gramma, too.  AH!!  What did I do?  Why is my mom so nasty @ me thinking I'm not attractive cuz she ^knows^ my dad?  That's a sin.  Just because of that n word thing you get away with harming me.

They really care @ my aunt.  I know for a fact @ this, what about the fact she is related to her mom?  It sounds like something I don't know about doing to be right.  I just am a person who's done right things and have a personality type.  This is how the world used to be.

Ancestors

I have attractive relatives on different sides.  Isn't it passed onto me to unravel cuz that's who I'm related to?

I think..

..they whoever they is.. believed that like things like the school is a living thing, community theater .. is a living thing .. well, we never said to make your hair dark and get piercings and move somewhere you don't really like at all

Girl in PLay

So, she was Dorothy but then she went off to NOCCA|Riverfront..

Now, she's in Tennessee.  Nashvilee fits her, but what about the real Saint Louis?

She would not talk to me.. I think her hair also got darker..

Another boy changed, too, looks older, was at our high school 1 year when his friend died.

I never wanted that for them, they deserve something but so would technically I someday, though that's not really that important in this position.

Problems Add Up..

..Do you wanna shudder @ living in Fort Lauderdale area since you were little and when you've never lived there again ) ) )

Messed Up

My rowdy self-indulged in a good way cousin has lived in the family area of Florida all but 1 year of her life and when going off.  It is by Miami..  You can visit the beach.

So, my family is also messed up..

Clammy

So, I've withdrawn like a clam and love livin' in O-Town~

LIKE "OMYGOD"..

I like the little boy from Pirates of the Caribbean from California.  I like the big men I saw with Burton who must eat lots of tacos and talk a lot..  I love that little girl they put in "The Brady Bunch }:]"

Otherwise, I've grown to hate California cuz all the adults I look up to from there are like ^and the club goes bump goes bump^ - probob is I also have beachy heritage in my lifetime but not claimed 1st, more like a visitin' lyfe!

Born and Bred in the Sout'

Naow, naow.

Tim Burton and Richard Carpenter mirror images..  What is so amazing about the fact that you see that you check your Facebook?  I bet lots of beady-eyed celebs actually do this..  I'm just saying it clicks with me as something private.  Ah'm bred in their crops.

Oh, and no offense- *doors close!* my orders!

Thursday, January 23, 2014

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Morning

Too Old

Ellen is to old to administer *** to me-  =}

Just Watched a Show

Campus Police Department, 1 in Indiana PA, looks just like Dad!

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Up Still

I listened to Richard Carpenter's interview again.  He seems like a nice man.  I didn't get all of what was said, which gets me in trouble, but it was a pleasant listen..

I ~ want ~ more!

It would be nice to have more to listen to like of Mindi Carpenter..
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Watcha Know??

Do you know @ being taken care of cuz of havin a young mom?  I was in bed and got up..

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TV

I just watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  Lonnie Love?  She was so cool!  The lady who was older but looked young was so radical.  The 1 who dressed from the 1980s was cool.  The football player was sweet.  The group who all did different things but performed for Ellen was good.

Singing

It's really hard.  If you are healthy, it's not.

Stereotypes

In judging how attractive I can, how much of a risk would you tell an Asian to take in being good with actual experience already in actively loving and tendering kids?  I did say last night something with the word k*** which was on the no-no list.... and I said well people like such and such are shit and decided to get that outta the way or something like that.  That's called shit, though.  Don't mean it against the people who all did that, have nothing waiting at the end for you, no good news....
155.8 lbs
31" waist

Problems in My Social Life

I've turned to a life fighting crime.  The Ft. Lauderdale Police said "don't shoot your gun in the sky" on New Year's.  I don't believe in encouraging racial complementing people against others racially....  They think I'm black!  I look white!  Those other kids aren't even as advanced looking as me.  They are only cute cuz people are nice to them and never or not me..

And Another Thing

While Ellen sits in the middle of her flocks of sheep, what right do you have to surpass someone like me to her if you were just juggling to see if I was equal to a 55 or whatever year old?

*sniff sniff*

So, who ruined the 2000s and 2010s?

My New Thing

People need to recognize how good I am as a white person racially.

Kicking Out

So, are we just kicking out girls born in the mid-late 1980s with older moms?

Wow

"Call Me" is from 1980.

Problem

Older people act like kids should be as developed as they are.. they are mimicy about it, like kids from the 1990s.

They're just being aroused about their "type" of generation of kids, but I'm in it, too.

Why are things less modern?

Listen to "Call Me" by Blondie - https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/call-me-2002-remaster/id723845843?i=723845927

Mixed Race

Remember that feeling of coziness kids had of the 1990s?  What happened!  Remember all those 15-year-olds on here around 2008?

Nitey

Going to bed soon unfortunately, maybe listen to music but need sleep..

TV

I just watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  There was a nice girl with medium blondish brown hair and highlights from a TV show since she was 16.  So, that's 21 years.  The 1st guy is really cute, gonna do a talk show, excited it'll be every day.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Dream

I had a CD and there was a big rink, silvery, and I was going around the rink saying how I'd buy it.  I said something @ mine, like along the lines of selling just 1.  Then, I woke up.

New Video

1 - nice movement for me to watch - 6/10 - Top of the World

Alike Singers

Does Adele remind you of Lady GaGa and Christina Aguilera??

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Posts

Did you ever notice people just nag at you to get you to say something they're going to make fun of?

So

You can't do something back to someone cuz they will do it back again.

Do you wanna talk @ something?

My brother can't say he's more European than me and get away with it.

I know..

..You wanna get rid of all the Americans.

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Rule Numero Uno

If you're gay does that mean you get to be annoying-

Where I Chose to Live

I'm 1 to go back.

Question Numero Uno?

Is California gay?  I'm listening it so happened to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.  You're like, "Oh that is so fabb."  Well I'm gay too, I'm polyasexual.

And, yea, even your girls.

Does anyone happen to also know I just so thought why he chose to live there and raise a family??  I mean Richard Carpenter.

What a j0ke!  No offense though.  Ginny has a mom from there and a dad from Pennsylvania-it's Pittsburgh!

..And Tim Burton might be Canadian

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