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Monday, February 3, 2014

What is your problem?

You are threatening my future daughter.  I do not wish to do this.

OMG

PLACE THE RESTRAINING ORDER ON ELLEN SHE THINKS SHE CAN JUST NASTILY HAVE A KID WITH HIM AND I CAN'T THINK OF HIM AS A DAD

Bugged

I feel I am bugged at any time from Ellen's secret messages.  It's different.

Well

I had a close friend with parents born 1941, daughter perfectly fine, needs some exercise and stuff, a bit bossy but okay with that.  So, Richard Carpenter is not all that daunting.

Grossed Out

I detest these weird things that happen, like that I have to think @ someone else when I want something, like my daddy post @ Richard Carpenter and then my dad had a car accident when 2 of them reduced my Chinese mom's perfect eyesight.

What I Think

I think Ellen just is mad at you for nothing to show off if your life is dreary.  Why does she get mad so easily?  I just said shit for fun and later took it back and said something else..  What's the big deal?  My dad suffered a car accident..

Wig

I'm getting this wig: link.
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Lesson

What is Karen Carpenter's message to the world?

Is it right??

Another Full Day

Another Full Night

more to clean in my room

^Friends With Benefits^ Know-It-Alls..

I always thought being older did that.

Whooo

made me not care @ piano and voice, whooo.. Tim Burton!  Now, I'll start anew!

TV

I watched some of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" online, my TV not even set up in my room.  She seems to be doing fairly well.  I have to go to bed and wake up early.

I liked her Beats music stuff whatever it's called.  I also liked watching Vine, the family with the little girl that came out at the end though I didn't like the way dad was holding her, and something else .. oh yes prizes, very funny costumes!

Why??

So, why are people all just mean to me?  Did I say it enough, yet?  Huh, huh?

Problem

Ellen you are bad, you have no way of saying no.  You and Richard just keep talking and then stop when you find we are younger and act like something's wrong.  What?  Nothing happened.  It's not magic.

UNracist

Easily, people are not racist.  Just ignore them.

The World

So, I just sit here watching the world think it's Ellen DeGeneres to me?

Grumps

So, people are so grumpy they don't want us to watch them meet Ellen.

Changed Muh Mind

I'm gonna dye it.

Busy

Tomorrow morning I go somewhere, see you when Ellen comes on, will bring my cell tho.  Nothing Wednesday.  =]  Par-tay.

Videos

@ my dad's accident + Ellen + R. Carpenter

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Problem

Like things with others, my 1st catch of my new room is with these problems.

Videos

I made some against Ellen.  They are loading.  It's @ the shit that happens here.  I don't really know who started it.  I'm not totally against Ellen, I don't know what she does.  I don't want to unravel shitty messages.  My dad's car accident ^means^ something.  It jerked at my beautiful Chinese mom's eyesight!  Stupid Orlando-inians!!

Should I be worried @ saying stupid?  I just want this post to go by smoothly!

My Sorrow and Woe

I got an gay disgusting interrupted click in my sorrow, and I lost feelings stunned and horrified, like I'd been on a spell and that I'd want to do that.

Well

Something else will happen, but I am sorry Ellen thinks I'm a horseshit farmgirl.

I guess we'll just say it-

My mom is stupid to make fun of my weight.

Mobile

may or may not post

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Always Asks

My therapist alwyas asks, like anything @ Ellen, etc.  No response!

Why I Curse

Ellen won't stop remembering when I was mad at a time before and thinks it's in me more than others.  I don't really curse often, and you can't give me punishments others don't get.  Why do you make me mad?  I may contact the police @ Ellen, maybe even my aunt.

Website Update

Do's and Don't's

I will use curse words possibly when upset but unravel my thoughts after and apologize..

Problem

So even after you are sorry for getting mad at someone who really did something to you .. you end up seeing the other person think you're there to kiss their feet!?

Dear Daddy

Is Richard Carpenter trying to differentiate Asians, alienate them, from European?

Ew! Gay!

Isn't Portia defiant for no reason?  She doesn't deserve you more than everyone else.

Upset

Do you realize how much I'm bombarded @ "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" in a crappy direction?

Stating the Verdict

You can't act like you can punish me.  You all are just shit to me and lie and are mean.  I mean even someone young got the word of safety.  You trying to k*** me?

Problem

Now, I'm getting negative messages cuz I used the word shit but didn't mean it as someone.

I did think of it as someone before and not say but not the way you want to think.

A Break

Ellen you look older.  Guess it's not because of me, contrary to popular belief systems.

2 Kinds of People

Some people are 1 thing or another.  Why not chose who you are like??  :|

Not What I Thought..

I thought you were outta my life.  Isn't this like the 1 thing you shouldn't do?

Problem

You all are encouraging my bad friends~

Your Problem

You seem upset.  Why not sort it out?  Maybe, you don't exercise like me.  Honestly??

New Videos

Me Singing

1 - Rainy Days and Mondays
2 - Top of the World
3 - Close to You

Believe

I know Ellen does stuff to cancel stuff out, and it works.  However, I don't have the same track history.  Anyway, I know that when I do something for real it doesn't work, too, just because of my race so I don't have to listen to anyone.

News to Spread

I saw an obese kinda touchy feely mamma with 4 kids, the eldest looked Spanish and had bubbly fat skin and 1 nail with white at the end cut crookedly..  She was looking at me like "this is my .. lesson" you know, her disposition?  I'm sure it's made its mark.  No, I didn't do anything wrong, but I slept on the bus.  She was in front of me facing me, though, but I was already that tired and gonna sleep anyway most likely..

No pun intended, just feel sorry and wanna help.

O Boy

Dear Little Ellen!

I just watched 2 of your wonderful videos on YouTube!

was upset at my mom on the inside

My room is stressing me out.  I told you I was sick and why I got up.

On a Roll

Wasn't even watching to see her but the little girl and now the gift scene.  Why is Ellen so mean?  I got mad online, but I don't do things like that little boy.  I'd probably smile and admit I was uncomfortable, at this point in life.

Why I Like the Show

Maybe cuz she's popular, but I feel like I'm not good enough to watch it but still good enough for other things..

How'd You Feel

If people always acted insulting each day to you like me?

OK

I should have just said technically I don't believe I gave forth the battle of any such message..

In a Rush

I'll manually disclaim my point in saying shit I do not mean poo.. what else could I have said in a rush??

Worried

I am worried @ losing all or any of Ellen.  I was just expressing myself against her mistakes.  No one likes me for my race, so.. if I was just being helpful someone would leave me.  Leave now or leave naturally.

Sad

I got a pounding message from Ellen I feel.  I don't really like that shit.

MAH THERAPIST

She 1st acted like she stimulated my brother because she knows I called her stupid because she's really mean and unprofessional sometimes.

Whoo

I think my mom deserves an apology from others.

Who Deserves an Apology (Not Me I Don't Want It)

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Bored and Watching TV Online..

I thought people in Orlando were messing with my dad.  Got tired of listening to music.

That's just her.

If you are jealous of me GET THE FUCK OFF YOUR ASS.

WOW YOU JUST RUIN MY RELATIONSHIP

*ELLEN*

I don't want anything on you, but that's a mean way to say you don't wanna talk to me like those friends you all take to.

I just wanted to try to get your attention didn't expect anything weird.

Mad?

May I also interject to ask what's up with Renee Fleming?  I wonder if she knows that I follow her and was busy and missed her on TV once..  I kept being under the impression it had to be online.  My room isn't even set up.

Mad More

That lady is just being mean, too.  She will negate me because of race.

What

People wanna see Ellen, and you can't make it your business to ruin it for others.

Problem

You idiots on Ellen that dad just called Ellen shit, a nigger.  So, how is it I do not deserve to say what I think of you like I just have?

*I almost *whammed* my table*

IQ

Wow, Ellen, are you mad at me?  Guess you don't need me at all..  You just shit shit in people's faces and then get mad at nice people for nothing!

You think the world is concrete and that nothing is complicated, it's either A or B and you can't say anything.

Wow

The parents are just there so tacky nodding their heads, too young-looking to have a good kid.

I guess Baby Boomers should not have been born, their parents were young.

CooCoos

All anyone says is they would know what I'm gonna say, but you know that of anyone, so SHUT UP.  ..Am I a nigger?

Wow

Wow, Ellen, I'm tired of your show, the people on it are rude to me.. or is it just plain stupid? too

Sick

I feel tired and a bit full and keep tasting the crackers within my body.

Weird

People think I mean something I don't.  They think everything is 1 or the other.  I thought maybe it wasn't, but like sometimes the way it's said.. seems to connect to something.

BLEH WATER

Cleaning

My Room

Upset?

My aunt can't be upset with me.  I am an adult and I make my own decisions.  She needs to get a life otherwise.

Bed Again?

I was gonna watch some of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" online but am not finished with my room, so see you when I guess, I'll be missing the show.. hopefully not long.

Dreams

I remember Richard Carpenter answered in all lowercase and I saw him, big, in a doorwa like in the dark.  I was passing in a caravan.  We were supposed to like be picking osmething in school.  If I didn't kep moving I'd fall behind.  I started ahead and was trudging through ahead some.  There was a place where I shot.  I was with Jimmy Fallon and like someone like him or him came out, I was with 1 old bestie at the time.  Like, someone was coming to hurt me.  There was a thing where you shoot toward the center of hte circle from the last dream.  We walked some, and I had to keep looking for danger.

Dream

I was in a big thing where it's like a circle and toward the middle you see like an animal.  I came outta 1 and was asking what the panda bear was for.  We just passed something neat, like maybe regular bigger bears.  I think there were babies of these bears.

Nitey

Going to bed soon.  :(  Cleaning to do!!

My Room

Such a mess but so much arranged, too.  Must finish!

Nice

Nice music commercial, Ellen.  *ellen is that you*

You really let it out.  Like a movie @ Ellen!

Recurring Problem

I keep thinking people are scared I said "oh no" when my dad came home cuz I wanted to see him and not to homework.  Something to talk about or do.

Flute

$120-$130

with accessories and books

Potential

I had the chance to go through life unpunished.  I DO know I am not supposed to really be bad and I DO know caps are okay.  I AM NOT bad.  I just make mistakes like everyone!  I thought my life was an experiment and I never saw the people and things I was promised.  I slipped in school for reasons beyond my control.  I am beaten for taking care of my health.  Worry @ school, sometimes need to relax and get away from the noises and people who will never be nice to me.  YIKES!

I was looking @ the pictures of Miami Beach or Miami.  It reminds me of birth.