I was like ah have I gone blinde! I slept in my contacts.
I couldn't get up and move around. At 1st, it was more by choice. I wanted eating with my mom. It was so weird, my body was like I dunno wrapped in shells almost in the manner of a cocoon? It was pieced together like still malleable drying iron machinery. It was like cracky. I was put together maybe like a computer. I felt if I got up as though I would feel a funny feeling of discombobulation.
So, it was weird. I was very upset. My mom would not stop bugging me, and I used to not even wanna come out to see the doctor! I felt almost forced to leave after throwing my laptop, which was breaking though it got better but then turned off. I was bugged all through the group, made a joke of. Someone made my nose too slick and I supposedly can get it back! That guy behind me! It feels Ellen is just telling them right and left to hurt me in some way each time. I know I was so good the 1st time at a group. These groups are not as good as I imagine. What else? I was bothered other ways. I'm also made to feel I deserve nothing but hurt coming up. So.
Also, I was looking up and out, it was so weird. My eyes and my body. In there I also scuffed a bump in my boots. I had to scrench things rather than hit things and say a word I didn't like more than once.